Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Tyler's birth announcement

Everyone should have received their birth announcements in the mail by now, so I thought I'd share Tyler's birth announcement today. 

I love how simple it is, and obviously I'm obsessed with the amazing photo that Sara Jayne took. You can't see it here, but the back is a blue and white thin chevron that's so cute too! Love it! I can't believe that it's been almost two months since this squish became a part of our family!


Thursday, October 29, 2015

Tyler's newborn pictures

The hospital pictures that Sara Jayne took of Tyler were so perfect, but we still wanted some traditional newborn pictures to capture his squishy newness. As always, SJ did an amazing job, and I love all of these photos of our new family of four. 

 As we were leaving, Weston was snuggling with his blanket, and Sara was able to capture one of my favorite pictures ever of my little buddy. He loves his blanket so much, and I'm so glad that we have this stage of his life captured in such a sweet photo!


Wednesday, October 28, 2015

tyler: one month

cat in the hat from Aunt Ginny / crocheted blanket from Grandma Kim

what's new

Tyler's first month of life is behind him! It's crazy to me how fast time is going. The first month felt like an eternity with Weston, and it's flown by the second time around. He is becoming more and more alert, and is staying awake for longer periods of time. He loves being held, is an impatient little dude and loves hiccuping. He's so close to smiling, and I can't wait. He loves to stare at me when I'm holding him, and I could stare at that little face forever. :) 


Tyler had his one month checkup on Friday (10/23). As of then, his stats were:

10 lb, 1 oz
22 inches long

hair color:

Right now, it's mostly brown, but in some lights, it has a little red in it. 

eye color:

dark blue


He outgrew newborn stuff at around 3 weeks, and now he's fitting in the 0-3 month stuff really well. He's so long that we're going to be going up in sizes quickly, just like we did with Weston!


He's doing pretty well for being such a "new" baby. He's sleeping from around 11pm-3/4am, eating and going back to sleep until 6:30am. After that nursing session, he tends to want to stay awake until about 8am, and then pass out for a few hours. I'd love to sleep through the night, but I'm definitely not complaining. I know that one day, he'll magically sleep through the night and I'll be fully rested again. :)


The first few weeks of breastfeeding were rough for Tyler and I. He was a champ at the hospital, but once we got home, he decided he didn't really care about nursing all that much. He didn't want to latch correctly, only wanted to snack for a few minutes instead of eating a full meal, and loved falling asleep during nursing sessions. At about 1.5 weeks, I went to a lactation consultant, and honestly, it only stressed me out more. The doctor confirmed that Tyler wasn't getting a ton of milk during a session, and didn't really have any answers as to how to fix the problem. At that point, he wasn't back at his birth weight, and I was freaking out. She wanted me to pump to see how much milk I was making, and maybe give him a small bottle after nursing sessions. I was frustrated, stressed and that wasn't helping. I was so sure that breastfeeding Tyler would be as easy as it was with Weston, and that I wouldn't have any issues. Instead, I was contemplating becoming an exclusive pumper, switching to formula and just sitting in a corner crying. Instead, I had a good discussion with Tyler, and he started cluster feeding. Magically, it started getting better. I think it was a combination of him getting bigger, him getting used to breastfeeding, him becoming more alert and me just trusting that we'd get there. On his one month birthday, I met up with my friend Andrea, who had her adorable little girl, Saige, the same day as Tyler, and she let me use her baby scale. On that day, Tyler was 9 lb 14.5 oz, and I was so excited to hit the 10 lb mark. Seeing the scale say 10 at the doctor appointment was a relief. He's still a skinny guy (compared to what a chunk his brother was) but he's doing well and breastfeeding is no longer an issue. Thank goodness! This is a perfect example of how every baby is different, and just because something worked the first time, doesn't mean it'll be the same the second time around. 


Cuddling, snacking on milk, sleeping, his pacifier (even if he can't keep it in his mouth), looking at lights. 


Pooping, having gas bubbles, waking up hungry, being left alone, getting dressed. 


It's amazing how different everything is the second time around. Instead of spending hours googling things to make sure my baby is "normal", I'm relaxed and can trust in my instincts. Even the hard parts of newborn life (lack of sleep, cluster feeding, constant need for attention) aren't so hard, because I know that it's a fast stage, and it'll be gone before I know it. 

I've started pumping to build my stash, and I forgot how much I dislike it. It's worth it to me, so I'll continue doing it, but it's definitely not my favorite part of motherhood!

the pups:

Cooper and Grace are great with Tyler. I definitely wasn't as nervous about it as I was when we brought Weston home, and it's honestly like Tyler has always been here. Grace mostly ignores him, and Cooper wants to be near him at all times. I always find Cooper about a foot away from him, or laying on his blanket or play mat. 


Weston is such a great big brother. He still hasn't touched Tyler, but he definitely loves him. He loves to help me change his diaper, get Tyler's burp cloths, blankets and pacifiers, and likes to make sure Tyler has a car to play with at all times. He doesn't like when Tyler cries, and tells me "mom - pa-fier on!" whenever he does. He gets so excited when Tyler wakes up, and when he's sleeping he always tells me "Ty-er seepin' again". I can't wait to watch them grow up together! And for Weston to touch his brother... :)


One month birthday!
First bottle!


Ty Ty
Crab Apple

my little Ty Ty,

Just like that, you're a month old. I know just how fast this year is going to go, so I'm trying to treasure every single second with you. That being said, I know how much fun the next stages are, and it makes me so very excited to see you blossom into a little person. 

I wondered what it would be like to have a second child. I worried about having enough love in my heart for both of you, and I know now that was ridiculous. My heart has doubled in size, and I can't imagine life without you. Adjusting to life with two wasn't always easy, but we're doing great now, and I can't wait to watch you grow up with your brother. 

Thank you for giving me the chance to be a mommy again, my sweet little boy. I love you so much, even if you can be the crabbiest apple in all the sea. :) 


your mommy 


Wednesday, October 21, 2015

happy birthday husband!

Happy birthday to the man I fell in love with. 
Happy birthday to the man who made me his wife. 
Happy birthday to the man who made me a mom to two beautiful boys. 
Happy birthday to the man who makes my life complete. 

Happy birthday Jake - I love you! 


Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Weston meets Tyler.

One of the things that was really important to me after Tyler was born was that Weston was able to meet him on his own, and that it was a special moment for our family. I was worried about capturing the moment with pictures instead of being IN the moment, which is why I was SO GRATEFUL that Sara Jayne agreed to be there with us to take pictures. Knowing SJ was going to capture the moment our boys met for the first time helped me relax, and helped me focus on that special moment. 

Of course, Sara Jayne went above and beyond. These photos will be treasured FOREVER. 
Such a special moment for our family! 


Monday, October 12, 2015

Tyler's birth story

Making the decision to schedule a c-section for Tyler was not an easy one. I debated it for the majority of my pregnancy, but at the 36 week ultrasound, the decision seemed clear. Tyler was measuring the same (even a little bigger!) than Weston was at 36 weeks, and I knew that I did NOT want to risk going through a difficult labor experience again, so the c-section seemed like the safe and responsible choice. As soon as we selected our date, I knew it was the right choice. All the stress of "will labor work this time?", "when will he come?", "just how big will he be?" all washed away, and I was able to just be excited about meeting our sweet little guy. 

Having September 23rd as Tyler's birthday gave us a clear deadline. I was able to finish everything at work, spend some special time during our last days as a family of three, and mentally prepare for becoming a mommy for the second time. 

The night before our c-section was a bit emotional for me. I cried as I put Weston to bed, and even though I knew that a brother would be the best thing ever for him, my heart hurt at the thought of his life changing so much. I struggled with feeling guilt for changing his life and feeling excited about our new baby. I was so excited to meet him, but our life was so "easy" and I was scared at it changing. Jake and I laid in bed that night, discussing baby names (we still hadn't decided on a name) and talked about the big day. Finally, at around midnight, we turned off the lights, put away our phones and fell asleep.

We woke up at around 6:45am to excited text messages from our friends and family, and got ready for our big day. All the fear from the day before had turned to excitement, and I couldn't stop smiling. We got Weston dressed, made sure our bags were all packed, and headed to my dad's house a little after 8am. 

After a few family photos, lots of hugs and kisses, and some tears (from mommy of course!), we were on our way to the hospital! My tears wouldn't stop once we got in the car, and I made Jake turn on Britney Spears to "pump me up". It helped instantly, and the excitement was back. 

Walking into Labor & Delivery not in labor felt a little strange. I wasn't in labor, but we were meeting our baby today! A nurse brought us to our triage room (the same one we were in for Weston!) and got me all settled in. They started my first IV a little after 9am, and then it was a pretty steady stream of doctors and nurses stopping by to check in and go over things. They all kept commenting on "what a big baby" this was going to be, and people started making guesses on his weight. A resident guessed 9 lb 6 oz, our nurse guessed just under 10 lbs, and my doctor guessed 9 lb 3 oz. We went over a lot of paperwork, and patiently waited our turn to go into the OR. Everyone was so friendly, and we were laughing and joking around all morning. 

Our surgery was scheduled for 11am, so Jake got into his scrubs at around 10:30am. At a little after 11am, the anesthesiologist came in to go over the game plan, and we were told we'd be going to surgery around noon instead. Two nurses came around noon to bring me into the OR to get ready for surgery. It felt so strange to walk into an OR, sit down at the table and start discussing everything that would be happening. Luckily, everyone in the OR room was so friendly, and we had lots of fun joking around while prepping for surgery. 

Jake was still in the triage room, waiting to be brought into the OR. He was getting the camera, and luckily took a test picture. NO MEMORY CARD! Luckily, I had brought my laptop, so he was able to hunt around and find an extra one. Jake came into the OR around 12:30pm, and we got started. We were meeting our baby!!! Jake went to take a few pictures... MEMORY CARD FULL!!! I had prepped a memory card, and then left it at home, and the extra one was full! SERIOUSLY!!! Jake quickly deleted pictures to make room, and it all worked out, but I felt pretty silly!

At 12:43pm, Tyler Thomas Roe came busting into the world with a loud cry! Our baby boy was here! They cleaned him up, measured him, and everyone couldn't wait to find out how much he weighed. They shouted "9 lb 3 oz!" and we all cheered, because my doctor had guessed perfectly! 

Unlike Weston's birth, Jake and Tyler were able to stay in the OR with me while I was closed up. It was so amazing to spend time with my husband and our baby so quickly, and doing skin to skin with him made the rest of the surgery go by much quicker. The anesthesiologists were so nice, and kept taking pictures for us while we spent time as a family.

After surgery, we were brought to a recovery room, where I was able to hold Tyler more, and practice breastfeeding. He latched like a champ, and was so snuggly! I had forgotten how little and squishy and adorable newborn babies are! 

We were brought to our hospital room a little after 3pm (room #2621), and about an hour later, Weston came to meet his brother! Our sweet friend and photographer, Sara Jayne, was sweet enough to come take pictures of our family's special moment, and I will treasure those pictures FOREVER! (they're getting a post of their own)

Our families stopped by that night to meet Tyler as well, but mostly, we were left alone. I remember being bombarded by nurses after Weston's birth, but this time, the nurses only came in if we needed something or if vitals needed to be taken.

Tyler got his first bath the first night, and he seemed to love it. He didn't cry at all!

The next morning, I was able to get out of bed! I was so excited. Being stuck in a bed is not something I do well with, so being able to stand up (even if it hurt) was awesome.  The next few days were pretty calm - we had some visitors, we watched lots of random TV, and we snuggled our baby.

I can't thank the nurses at Regions Hospital enough. They were so sweet, so helpful and I want to hug so many of them! It was such a relaxed and friendly atmosphere, and we're so grateful for that. Apparently they liked us too, because several of the nurses said "we love coming in here! This is our calm spot today!" 

We stayed in the hospital until Saturday, September 26th, and when we were released, we were READY to get home. We missed our Weston, we missed our dogs and we missed our bed. 

My dad dropped Weston off shortly after we got home, and we quickly got into our new groove. Cooper and Grace came home on Sunday, and they were SO EXCITED to meet Tyler! 

Our life as a family of four (+ two dogs!) has been an adjustment, but I wouldn't trade it for the world! Bringing Tyler into this world and watching Weston become a big brother has made my heart so happy, and I can't wait to watch the rest of their lives unfold!!!